THE PRICE TAG

I have a job now. I am in Lucknow, my hometown. I don't have to worry about cooking anymore! My parents are happy, they couldn't have been happier. This is what they had always wanted.
This  life is so different from what I expected. What I had expected has already occurred and ended.

I lived my dream for five months. I was away from home. I had fun. I was cooking for myself. I was  happily worried about lots of things. I was living life my way and I loved it. Don't get me wrong. I like this job too. I like living with my parents. I am glad I don't have to cook. 

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had continued to live my dream. Why did I give up all that? Why did I choose to return? Why??? I wish I knew why. 

I'm lying, I know why. Its just too hard to accept. I gave it all up for my family. I had everything I wanted minus my family. It was the hardest decision I ever made. Too bad, everything comes with a price tag attached. If you have everything you always wanted and never had to give up anything in exchange for anything, then I envy you with all my heart. I didn't want to barter but I fell short of choices. In fact, I had none. I had to give up my dream for something I always had. Its so amazingly confusing. I like my decision but I hate the fact that I had to give up my dream in exchange.

"Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning." Sir Winston Churchill 

All the best decisions come with an enormous amount of sadness and with a promise of happiness in the end. I am not as happy as I would have liked to be, but then, this is not the end.